Quarantine Diary 22: She's just a girl and she's on fire
Feeling the catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away
She knows she would like to fly away but unfortunately there is a EU travel ban for 30 days. So this girl on fire has to sit her bum at home. I am not so sure anymore who’s life continues on and who’s doesn’t but us girls here are trying to make life continue somehow. We are doing the things as priority to do right now that maybe we would have to do in a month. I uploaded another video on YouTube today, I don’t share them here because they are Turkish and currently I don’t know what the hell is happening there as it seems impossible to me that out of 90mil circa. population only 18 people have the virus? So people seem to panic because of the unknown.
I think that’s what the panic is about, the unknown causes the panic. Here I know my destiny for now. We are stuck at home and it seems that the quarantine will continue longer than the 3rd of April. We know that each night before I check the news, the number of death seems to go up and NOT slow down no matter the measurements that the government is taking. How helpless is that? Knowing that you are doing everything that you can but the outcome doesn’t seem to change. Jeez its tough.
I remember the days when I was a little girl and I lived with the basic knowledge that if I do the right thing, the outcome will be a positive one. Seems ironic that the outcome is positive but COVID-19 positive in current situation.
The blog seems to keep my mental health stable because trust me it is not easy living with no goal, or a goal that is “to survive” like the neanderthals. I really feel like the meme “What year is it?”.
Each day I seem to shed a few tears for a bit, I mean honestly just a bit like 30 seconds. I am not panicking or sad of the virus, but sometimes I really get scared of the possibility that it might hurt my loved ones. So this blog goes out to all my loved ones, I love all of you and I am sorry for being far away. My heart is always near you. <3 Dear stranger, if you have the opportunity and can give a little kiss on the cheek to your loved one, right now. Do it. We don’t know what tomorrow brings but we always have today.
Goodnight x