Quarantine Day 21: Dear stranger, if you are reading this...

I literally notice my mood changing according to the weather on that day as there is literally nothing else that influences my mood. Today was eventless other than the fact that I got high off my cleaning products as I cleaned every corner of the house for hours and hours. Some times I also find the motivation to work out but today wasn’t one of those days. I walk a bit more in the mornings, still our street but just up and down more like a prison. A prison that I am kept in for some one else’s mistakes.BOOM. Yes I said it.

I have been jokey like this all day long. One of the biggest positives of this quarantine is that I love cooking challenging stuff.

I cooked this Croque Monsieur this morning, than Tommy cooked slow-cooked smoked ribs. Both were amazing. I’m sorry but in all this quarantine depression I am not going to cut on my food, %100 not. I have never been a girl who was not happy with her body, I ALWAYS tried to improve it but I never denied my genes or my body type. That definitely has not changed now either. I genuinely didn’t grow a huge depression or sadness but sometimes it just feels unreal.

Like today I struggled for a second to remember that I was in quarantine. The weird thing about not leaving the house is that after the 20th day, you forget why you were stuck in the house in the first place. Instead of checking the news all the time I am more “ Wake me up when quarantine ends” mood. Bringing more stress to my life won’t do anyone any favours. There are certain moments in my day when I feel down. I call my parents in Turkey every morning and seeing their face always for some reason makes me want to tear up. We are already far from each other but also not knowing when next I can fly over to see them hurts.

Meanwhile for people who have been asking me “ How the hell do I manage to stay in the house for 20 days'“ is that we are literally chilling in the most random corners of the house. To be honest before we didn’t even use our terrace now we have breakfasts there in bright sunny days. We chill in the kitchen have a glass of wine while cooking dinner. We challenge each other with stupid questions like “ If you could choose to be with one celebrity which one would it be” etc. I appreciate having a best friend in the house with me. I don’t think I would be able to survive this situation well if I was an expat living alone in quarantine. If you are one my heart is with you and do reach out to me, we can chat. We are all in the same situation and we just have to be strong.

Dear stranger, if you are reading this comment “What was the most interesting thing you have learned today” or alternatively e-mail me a photo you took from today so I can see the world from your eyes.

Ah, also I groomed my dog today, and I am very impressed with the results.

Here she is

Luna the cocker, with a new trim.

Goodnight x