Quarantine Day 23: I'm exhausted
I am exhausted. I am exhausted of feeling like it is not getting better. I am exhausted of getting bad news. I am exhausted that people don’t take this seriously when we are drowning in this.
Today I literally had some moments where I completely had a blank moment where I forgot why I was home. When talking to one of my best friends on the phone and I said “ Yes I have actually been home for 23 days now because I had a cold late February and didn’t go out voluntarily” I noticed how long I have been staying at home. In all this time I only went for food shopping twice and only 1 family dinner before the night of the official lock down.
Do you know what I don’t understand about the concept of lock down. How some people, with colds and fevers, still went out before a cold. There had to be a virus for some people to have common sense not to leave their homes when they are ill. Because there are always people with low immune systems in our societies, people with respiratory conditions, old people who need to be more careful and take care of their health if they have a cold etc. It is all coming to clear now for everyone that no matter this virus or that virus or influenza YOU MUST STAY AT YOUR HOMES. How selfish is it for anyone with any sort of contagious disease to be going out? Forgetting the people who are under chemo treatment, or our elderly who are much more fragile…
Each day we feel like we are doing a sacrifice for our future as well as protecting ourselves, but I feel like I am giving more from my life instead of living longer due to staying home. Its a bitter sweet moment, I know I am keeping myself staying at home but I am also angry at people who have not stayed at home when they felt like they had a cold. I am generally angry today because it feels like most of the people did not do the sacrifice I am doing by staying at home. Maybe millions around the world who have not taken this seriously caused deaths of thousands. Can you believe? Just for the sake of grabbing coffee outside a teenager in Italy or France, wherever, may have caused an old lady die in UK. This is how serious it is right now, and this virus can be spread from 1 to thousands. I am sure you have read this information millions of times but it is so frustrating and exhausting being stuck in a cluster of death and quietly waiting at home so people can finally understand that all they have to do for me or for him/her to live, is for you to stay at home.
Stay at home, stay safe x